maRyx33

2011-03-22T01:11:00.003+08:00

i know its kinda freaking long since i use my page , to express my feelings and thoughts .

came to work feeling quite happy , thou i was abit late fr some appointment . did production and service as well , and evrything went on smoothly thou it was damn busy ! just before lunch break , GM was talking to me bout food , blah blah blah , one part , he was saying bout somebody handed in letter and will be finishing work soon . i ddnt pay attention to what he was saying coz my hand was working on smth , but i did heard what he was taking . ignored bout that , i went down fr lunch , and while eating , somebody also said th same thing . i was freaking SHOCKED ! and kept ask her to repeat her words , and denying her words at th same time , coz i really ddnt believe her at all . soon 2 more person came and said th same things and cnfrm bout it . frm that moment , my mind went completely blank and ive no appetite to continue eating . threw my food away , i msg-ed A , telling him bout it . and he straight away called me . told him bout what they told me , and he told me he also knew bout it . i was shocked too but couldnt say anything and dont want to say anything too . but he knew i sounded upset and angry , so he tried to console me . i tried to calm down my mind and went to sleep . but couldnt sleep , turn and toss around , i finally gave up on sleeping . was my face and walk around like a zombie coz my mind was in complete daze . an hour later , continue work again and i asked one of th china guy bout it . and he told me he knew , evry single things of what i just heard earlier today . and he even say THEY ALL knew bout couple weeks ago . and i was like , HUH ??!! how come i ddnt know .

th more i think , th more angry i bcame . wonder why ?? here's why !

i work hard , i force myself to work hard , coz unlike other ppl , each station have at least 2 ppl , so they at least have somebody to ease their workload . but not fr me , ive to work alone , rushing fr productions as well fr service time . but nvr did i complain , i just fulfill my duties .

and when he off or if he went on holidays , ive to take care some of things , coz some stupid old guys , likes to be on th front but wont even do th job . ok i ddnt open mouth nor say anything bout them .

but ! last week when i was bullied again , thou he bullied me before few times but not as serious as last week , and i finally tried to open my mouth to talk bout it , but Ch wont listen to it . saying he wont care coz it happens when he was off . i was like , hello ??!! i tried to hold up some justice fr myself , or to even protect myself , but fcking nobody cares ! and ok , i kept quiet again , and do my job as per normal .

and today , i heard this news not frm himself , but frm th mouth of diff ppl . and what i mad most about is , WHY AM I TH ONLY ONE KEPT IN TH DARK ?! evrybody else knows bout it but not me !! i dont mind you going off , but at least inform me .

and furthermore , your departure clashes w my holiday . so hell ya ! fr sure my mind will be disturbed when i went fr my holidays . just when i can finally take a break , smth is fr sure to destroy my time .

why do i feel evrything , evryone is trying to bring me down and to leave me ??!

worked like a dog , no recognition , no nothing . as th only s'porean , but holding th lowest pay compared to all those foreigners . you took foreign workers coz its cheaper , and they can accept lower pay compared to local , but not here , its th other way round . th local itself gets th lowest pay , but foreigners gets higher than local . wheres th logic ?!

ive long had enough of these shits , but i still came to work evryday , coz i dont want ruin your reputation , and to gain myself more experience day by day . but day by day too , th feeling of going away frm this place is getting stronger , but i cnt do it coz if i leave , nobodys gonna do th job . coz they just freaky dont wanna take another person fr my station .

arggggggggghhhhhhhhhh !!

can i just backfire evrything ?!! coz my definition in life is ;

revenge is forever sweet :)

Sad birthday as always ...

2010-08-31T14:22:00.001+08:00

2009-11-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

all this thx to that beast and th 2 bitches .

he stepped in and evrything turn nasty and messy .

and i got blame fer EVERYTHING , fer NOTHING !

don't blame me if police steps in , and i don't care if you wanna shelter him as much .

curse you guys and i believe karma works .

2009-10-31T23:36:00.003+08:00

off day . wanted to go out but haiz last minute cancel coz he busy , and sumore i still hvnt receive my pay . arghh !

but my loot arrived . love ittttt :))

no money still can shopping hor . tsk tsk

2009-10-21T23:05:00.001+08:00

mc fer 2days but tmr continue work liao . starting to dislike th chef and th service staff there .

man will always be man , keep talking bout dirty stuff (you know what i mean) and they loves to use vulgarities especially th chef .

sometimes when i don't get what he say , i got swear and scolded by him . wtf sia .

5+mnth to go ! arghh

tired from working doesn't mean i cnt do shopping right ? haha . online shop few days ago and today th loots arrived . dam fast and i like it :))

navy blue blazer

i'm in love with highwaist skirt so i bought this . Forever21 blue highwaist skirt . brand new but it cost me less than 15bucks .
studded sling bag/clutch . vintage i like :)

still considering whether to buy this Forever21 ankle jeans . only USD12.50 = SGD17
hmm..

2009-10-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

monday

arrive early to get some things done in th office like my sentosa pass etc . lil bit of orientation frm th chef while waiting fer her to come . evrything settled , went to learnt to some productions . lunch not so busy so nth much .

break 3hrs really sian . duno do what . wan sleep but oni manage to close ma eyes fer 15mins . watch tv oso no good show .

dinner time no production coz evrything's done ystd and some tdy . so only learnt to do servicing and plating . last minute rush as always fer pastry side . but very sian stand fer long hours without do anything . ma legs and back wanna break liao .

only first day but i wish time to flies dam fast these 6 months .

tuesday

cheese yoghurt mousse if I'm not wrong .
keep doing hundred of plating fer function . forgot to take th finished product coz too busy to rmbr .
today total of 4 function/private dinner . as usual only got busy during dinner time and it's always last minute coz dessert is fire at th end . but get to finish off early coz got function . this whole week gonna have functions straight . hope evryday can go back early like tdy , tired la going home late .

and tmr i'll be alone coz it's her off day . i believe i can manage coz no need do production & only do plating but it's fer 100pax .

sleepy liao but hv to wait fer th ma uniform in th washing machine .

2009-10-09T22:49:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday budak !!

do nothing at home . last minute then decide to do fruit tart coz ma sweet tooth is acting up and furthermore it's meimei birthday . bla bla ends up finish evrything at 2am coz few things cock up , and she fell asleep at 11pm while i was doing . so she ddnt get to eat it . hv to wait till tmr then shall cut it .

2009-10-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

1st stop , ma house .
2nd stop , feeda house .
third stop , wahda house .
last pic of th day :))
th ex dress . ma all time fav :))

decided frm 6 ppl , drop to four . in th end only 3 together .went 3 house visits but it took us 1 whole day . haha ! it's bcoz we went to watch Phobia 2 movie . th show was dam good and hilarious . must watch ! give it 5/5 coz thai horror movie is always good de .

took cab back home coz my feet is killing me , arrive home 11pm . th taxi fare was fxcking ex lo , 20bucks fer th journey frm cck to hougang . s'pore so big meh ?

2009-10-06T14:38:00.003+08:00

damn funny !

2009-10-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

as usual , a message is like an alarm clock fer me . sure early morning got ppl message which makes me cnt go back to sleep . bla bla bla . went fer karaoke at Grandlink with ex-sec classmate . meet up at 3 , finish at 530 . went Singapore Post fer dinner at KFC , a puff then slack outside . duno where to go , in th end decide to go hougang central to slack . had fun laughing , gossiping , talking bout sec memories , playing playground and telling ghost story . butt's off at 1030 coz fed-up liao mother keep spamming my phone and getting mad fer no reason asking me to go back . come back home with black face and come back liao still wanna scold me . wth !

2009-10-01T22:44:00.014+08:00

kerana skali cinta , aku tetap cinta .

2009-09-28T01:18:00.001+08:00

It's been 2 month and it got started again on this particular date . wth ?

2009-09-24T22:55:00.005+08:00

early morning received call frm Ritz-Carlton ask me report work tdy at 10am . they ring me at 830am and expect me to report at 10am . no choice coz $_$ quickly prepare myself , took taxi which cost me fxcking 15bucks all thx to morning peak hr surcharge , ERP and that bloody road closure which causes lotsa jams . in th end taxi cnt go into hotel area so hv to walk one big round to reach there .

arrive , met th hr personnel , change uniform and were told to meet th pastry chef at pastry kitchen . and hell i got lost in th lobby looking fer th sickening stairways leading to th kitchen . all this thx to them during th briefing fer 'touring' us at th kitchen but going diff ways , diff short cuts .

so in th end i forgot which way so had to ask one of th china worker , lucky he knows and brought me there . met chef bla bla bla , start working . had to do plating from one end of super long table to another end , all by myself . but lucky th plating was easy but not fer th second plating design . crazy paper had to roll till i bcome blur duno like what .

but one thing fer sure , all th chefs there and i meant literally all chefs talks in fluent english with good american slang and very very friendly . iw as doing my work alone at th long pathway coz th table full of plates was very long , and almost all chefs that walk pass greet me and ask me things like they know me or what sia . kinda paiseh coz not i greet them frst de but very weird they ask me how am i feeling tdy bla bla bla . funny la .

back to topic , when i was doing th second design plating , got feel 'that' thing gonna attack again but i ddnt pay attention to it and juz continue with my work . within mins i had th stupid seizure again (=.=) which cause some commosion . shant explained more , was told to rest at th locker room then chef ask me go back home to rest , tmr then can come work again as i request to resume my work eventhou was still feeling abit giddy . shyt lo .

body ar body , lil' precious blood , why must you give probs to mama today of all times . wasted my $ , my time , my energy and my sleep coz ystd oni slept at 4am but had to wake at 8 coz of th phne call . arghh ! super angry liao . hopefully tmr they wont call me last minute again to rush down early morning .

*ps , too draggy post so will find time to upload pics of tdy .

2009-09-22T22:46:00.002+08:00

third of raya but ddnt celebrate . lol .

went to Ritz-Carlton fer briefing . tot like 15mins or what but it took 2hrs i think . i was separated frm others and i kept changing places , in th end i was post to pastry kitchen :))

finish liao , a stick and went to pizza hut coz feeda been pestering us go eat coz she was dam hungry ( due hari makan ketupat lontong pon tk kenyang ke ? hehe ) jio debra too but got abit drama when she was about to order so she can't join us but we did save a slice of pizza fer her . slack abit then butts off at 7pm coz feeda's mum been nagging her to go home .

i purposely took bus home coz dun want go home so early . but came home still got ppl come house visits . was avoiding ppl de thats why purposely come back home late but they were here till 12am .

very busy business woman . fierce one . haha
one is big eye and th other is seductive eye .
now is vice-versa . LOL
look like a toy car but it's real de .

super woman ? haha

one is too hungry to care bout camera , one is no mood but like ah beng and th other one duno why . too stress or a top model pose ? Haha
see told you . she too hungry liao till eat like that .

2009-09-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

second day and suddenly raya feeling faded . was reluctant to go out coz i woke up late and no mood to raya , but no choice gotta follow coz dad been nagging .

went lotsa house thou went out late , arnd 4pm . bla bla and went home arnd 12am . otw home , pester mum to buy food but she ask me go McD myself coz i only want to eat th fries(2 days of no eat wor) . play comp awhile then went to sleep .

only her wore diff colour today .
*ignore my face focus on clothes or heels can le*

niece and 2nd auntie(father first mei) ? i oso forgot
last house of tdy ; oldest auntie(father side)

2009-09-20T23:38:00.005+08:00

more than 24hrs ddnt sleep today . annually been like this ; no sleep on th eve of Raya but this yr more worse coz more than a day nvr slp *dark circle ar dark circle* .

ddnt go anywhere , juz go grandpa(mother side) house early morning . help out coz as usual ppl will be flooding there from morning till night . i manage to rest my eyes fer 2hrs when people went back . at least helping out can still get money coz i tell them im still schooling . haha !

arnd 9pm mum & dad came then we went to grandma(father side) house . here is more slacking coz got lotsa ppl doing th chores . haha . gone off at 12am and arrive home near 1am . update some things and went straight to bed without washing off make up xD

oh ya , and i nvr eat anything th whole day . too busy so don't feel hungry and sumore no appetite . go anywhere ppl keep asking me to eat but i say i eat liao . haha . this way can shed more kgs (^_^)

with one of her auntie

fer th frst time in my life , we got a theme . and its black in colour of all colours .
my twin ? lol
with ah ma
and that baby girl have been sleeping on my shoulder fer 1hr . pain wor
arrive home and camwhore abit .

2009-09-19T13:01:00.007+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYEEEEEEEEE :))

yay ! lost 15kg ^_^ this year .
so , anyone got more than me ?
aiming 10kg more ? *evil grin*

2009-09-18T17:16:00.002+08:00

Jelang Waktu Meninggalkan Ramadhan Sedih Hati Kerana Tidak Terlalu Sempurna Di bulan Ini.... ya Allah Maafkan dosa Hamba Mu Ini Yang Selalu Dan Pernah Hilaf Menjalani Hidup........minal Aidin wal Faidzin.....Mohon Maaf Lahir Dan Batin

Di Hari Yang Berbahagia Ini, Inginku Menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun dan maaf atas segala kesalahan dan kesilapan, yang kecil mahupun yang besar, yang nyata mahupun yang tersembunyi yang telah ku lakukan yang sengaja mahupun tidak, dan yang dis...edari mahupun tak disedari... Maafkan Saya ya.... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.... :)

2009-09-16T23:24:00.005+08:00

juz came back home after went fer shopping to look fer my second heels *shh dun tell mother i bought one heels earlier this month* weird is , i hvnt bought clothes fer this coming raya but i got 2 pair of shoes liao . haha . been searching fer that perfect baju kurung modern or baju kurung penang in black & green , but apparently couldn't find . or maybe i ddn't search th whole geylang yet that's why couldn't find . went there like twice a week but still couldn't find it . Tmr shall hunt fer it no matter what . and hell dun care if i finds it and it cost a bomb like my previous year clothes , i gotta buy it . mother oso said at least buy 1 clothes can le , so if that ONE clothes slightly over expectation im gonna buy buy buy ! hehe .
raya is in 4 days time , suddenly i'm excited fer it . thou i've said during th fasting mnth that i dun really gonna expect anything this yr coz of F1 thingy , but as th day coming near , i'm happy fer it . nonetheless , i'm sad coz Ramadhan is coming to an end and wallahu alam next will i still meet it or not . Subhanallah . oh ya , i had to make another batch of choc chip cookie coz i've noticed that th cookie in th cookie jar is getting lesser everyday . wonder who's th notty notty lil' hands been eating my cookie . and i've yet to make cakes , and another 2 diff type of traditional and favourite cookies . hope can be done all by friday . i realized as raya is coming soon , time passes even faster rather than during fasting , feels like time going on very slow .
bla bla duno what to say liao . btw no pic fer tdy coz lazy to snap .

on a side note ;
you amaze me everyday with your childish notes , habits and doings .
block msn , block facebook or rather not adding me thou you add someone whom you hate th most before , whom you gossip bout almost evryday . but now you happily playing and chatting with her whenever you could online . weird fella .
you like to read bout people's blog , get info bout people's evryday life and convey whatever you know to you-know-who .
but crazy it is , you tries your very best to hide , to cover you life and blocking your world to certain people but not to some ppl .
what are you ? a spy ? or rather you still feel guilty bout evrything . and trying to make friends with people whom you hate once before .
it's like what happen during th recent VMS 2009 recently , kayne & taylor .
you shamed people but now you not putting any effort to salvage or rather chnge th stiff enviroment by doing something to show you regret .
but hell you still talks bout it , still thinks bout it , still trying to find people faults and even making things worse .
what's next ? spreading bad things bout me to th whole world ? i fxcking dun care
it's my blog so i can write whatever i want ,
thou it's raya soon , don't think is i should be th one to ask fer forgiveness ; it's between me and ALLAH .

2009-09-15T15:36:00.001+08:00

read bout someone wrote this . exactly what I'm feeling now .
perhaps ?

Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays, but I mean, we all just gotta move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, still sit there thinking about you? Because frankly, they don’t.

There comes a point where you miss someone so much that you can hear their voice echo in your head. And you can hear the names that they used to call you, the words they used to tell you. You memorized their laugh, their smile, and their silly ways. You can also feel their warmth around you and you don’t want to let go even though you know it’s just an illusion. * i like this part *

Everytime your phone rings, you smile because it’s them that’s calling.
Everytime you hear their name, your heart beats 100 times faster and sometimes, you can’t even breathe. * yup yup :) *
You knew that looking back on the tears would make you laugh, but you never knew that looking back on the laughs would also make you cry. All you want is to go back in time. Not to the time that you first met, to the time that you were known as nothing, but strangers. * love this la ! definitely what i had been thinking ever since . *

But no matter what, you’re in denial.
You hide your feeling so no one would know. You put on a fake smile and don’t let a single tear break through. You’re so used to hiding your feelings that you don’t even realize the pain you’re causing for yourself. Your thoughts become invisible.
It’s still there, but no one knows.
Like a love letter you didn’t show. And you’re hurting no one but yourself.

2009-09-14T03:13:00.001+08:00

did my hair * raya makeover ;D * . been pondering whether to highlight or full dye my hair . in th end chose to highlight . aunty heard my convo with wahda what colour to choose , then aunty said " if highlight choose brighter colour " i said ok since i got few preferred colour . i chose Bright Copper , and th colour is somehoe like very bright brown , i mean literally BROWN ! but after washing i saw th colour is somewhat like BLONDE (=.=) abit shocked , but now am satisfied and very happy with th colour :)) looks wild thou . and wahda choose lighter *not bright* blonde , but somehow turns out brown . wth ? but overall very nice . now waiting fer feeda colourful hair . pink ? purple ? haha !

before

after

did inner highlight nia , but request fer few outer .

* ps ddnt take pics of my inner hair . roughly shld know th colour but it's inside my hair . hehe

2009-09-13T16:01:00.000+08:00

The uncountable misses that i will have to get used to ,

2009-09-09T00:37:00.001+08:00

sat 05/09/09

went Ritz Carlton fer 'interview' regarding th F1 races . it's 10bucks per hr but maximum only 4days , and got Typhoid jab sponsored by th hotel too . cool or what sey .

monday 07/09/09

exams done ! hate th MCQ , stupid question and dumb answer . dun care liao since last module .
went to do our hair since we had nothing to do and been searching fer good place . went around but either th offer is not satisfying or th shop no good and stylist rude . lucky found one cheap , friendly hairstylist , all lady stylist , nice shop , nice place . we were like long-known friends sia with them and since they duno our name , they gave each of us name . No. 1 , No.2 and No.3 . cute sia .
may go there again to colour hair ? hmm

No. 1

No.2

new hair :))

No.3 she evrytime happy de

wednesday 09/09/09

accompany wahda , feeda and wanchin fer their interview at Marche restaurant at Vivocity . grats on getting in , but still hoping uncle friend aka exec chef call fer th Shangri-La at sentosa .
after , went sentosa to take my appoinment letter at il-Lido restaurant . i still ddn't get to see that girl . just can't imagine how am i gonna work with her . fxck it !

ignore th background

2009-09-05T00:17:00.001+08:00

so lazy to update with tons of pics .
so many things has happen ; happy & sad .
think shall update prolly all after th exam .
so tmr gonna chiong on my notes
* hopefully won't have to burn th midnight oil * gotta do even better fer this final module

2009-09-04T22:10:00.001+08:00

went geylang with wahda , feeda and her guy to look fer raya clothing , but as expected nothing catches my eyes and i can't find th design i've had in mind . basically all th designs fer this yr is mostly LACE which i hated th most , and it's like th whole thing is filled with lace (-.-) . nvm , shall go again one of this days to look . if too bad can't find anything , had to resort with th boutiqe i bought my clothes 2 yrs ago . kinda expensive but only that shop had th design i wanted .
couple of hours of walking around , took bus to funan coz we booked a table at Swensens . yeah we really spend a total of 1oo+ of only 4 pax . cool or what ? but only paid 5obucks coz got discount :) oh ya , funny moment during our meal (shan't mention coz i sure get kill if write it down)

yummy . apple crumble with old-fashioned vanilla ice-cream .
ddn't take pics of our meal , too hungry gua . haha
*funny moments bout this dessert* LOL

went home and i bought desserts from Bakerzin at Tampines1 . Strawberry Shortcake and choc-pleasant-what-fotgot-adi . Lol . but it's nice and still hard and cold even after 1hr of home journey .

2009-09-03T04:37:00.001+08:00

Army Open House , AOH
stupid , boring , hot and tiring day . duno why we had to go here .
to let th army "wash" their eyes ? yikes ! hell they can't stop googling up and making those stupid noises whenever girl passes by . but they only dared to do it when they're in a group of friends . coward ?
not only them , male students from other colleges does it too . nothing better to do . was told that some group or paticularly one guy wants "someone" number , but don't dare enough to speak up and had to resort to asking his friend to ask it from our tour guide . another coward ? bah .

good enough i ddn't get darker coz i'm all covered up thou th weather was killing and yeah , we're all fasting . only one thing fascinating enough was th real gun shooting . but my shoulder and upper hand hurt since . and now i can't lift up my hands properly (-.-)
oh ya , th tour guide sucks . can even scold us and nearly throw tantrum at us fer being separated from others . our fault isi that they are walking very slow that we were left behind or leaving them behind instead ? bastard . i kinda knew him and i know he 'budak maen baju' . think i scared ? so what if you knows how to speak mandarin ? like as if i can't understand what you were saying to your friends bout us . crazy fella . still can silly silly ask one of us writes letter to his camp to praise him ? wtf ! write complain letter better still .

this girl is always happy bout evrything here like a kid in candy store . haha

2009-09-02T01:49:00.001+08:00

nothing to do after school so went shopping .
instead of saving $$ to buy clothes or shoes fer th upcoming festivals , my itchy hands n uncontrollabe eye had to shop fer unnecessary stuff . guilty pleasures :))
and sweeties bought presents fer me too , belated but much appreciate . thank you so much *thou i had long guessed bout it*

shopping and more shopping xDc
Cotton On . can't resist it coz it's on sale .

cute stuff . my all time fav , eeyore !

body shop my fav . and my mum saw this purse and she wants it , but i say no . hehe . i like th blue colour but th perfume abit too strong fer me . nonetheless i really love it . thanks !

2009-08-31T22:17:00.001+08:00

31 august hor ;)
last min decided to watch Final Destination 3D . classes ends early and we had nothing much on plan , so booked tix at Vivo . upon arrival , saw Bakerzin and suddenly reminded that today is th last day of their 50% discounts on classic dessert . went in since we arrive early and movie will only start an hour later , and it's like a so-called treatment fer myself on this special day .
ps: we saw someone and someone but ddn't get up and say hello or rather surprise them , coz they walk in th restaurant without looking around anywhere . you get what i mean ;D

wahda's , cheesecake tart . they make th cheesecake look like ice-cream . nice but abit th cheese abit too heavy .

and those colourful sticks are meringue . baked flavoured meringue .

mine . classic all-time favourite , warm chocolate cake served with vanilla ice-cream . th vanilla essence of th ice-cream was so strong but nice , th cake was nice too BUT th choc inside was too thick and rather makes me bloated after 2 mouthful . th choc is too thick that i had th stuck-in-th-throat feeling of it . ddn't finish up all thou .

new friend ?

opps feeda gone .

choco and sugar art pieces done during th competition held at school on Saturday . evrything here can be eaten thou it's hard to believe that it is real .

first place winner .

2nd place winner .

2009-08-29T14:05:00.001+08:00

2009-08-26T04:26:00.003+08:00

here i am , alone and i don't understand
exactly how it all began
I'm holding on but is all gone
and from the start , maybe i was trying too hard
it's crazy coz it's breaking my heart
things can fall apart but i know
the past can't be rewinded
i ignored th cause inside
but i learn from what's left behind
and so it goes
that we have both learned how to grow
and from th start , maybe we were trying too hard
but it's just too much , taking th whole world all by myself
there's not enough , unless i start trusting somebody else ,
somebody else and love again

and from the start , maybe we were trying too hard
it's crazy coz it's breaking our heart
things can fall apart , but i know
I don't want you to go

2009-08-25T13:00:00.001+08:00

went sentosa fer I.A attachment interview . dun feel like interview coz th chef only brief whats th job scope is and who their worker is . and sh*t one of them is th jan intake girl . cross finger i wont get this job . coz frstly i want hotel de attachment and scondly got this girl . juz hope th chef choose guy fer this . went Sentosa Cove aft th interview , juz taking a breeze and camwhoring . actually wanted to see th exclusive rich & famous house but , can't explore much unless we hv car to bring us wherever .

my car . really !

view from th restaurant . nice breeze of air too .

th entrance , th bar lounge , th indoor dining and th outdoor dining .

th upcoming IR at Sentosa hv this cool roller-coaster .

Sentosa Cove

my future house at th back ;))

something special

2nd floor of th yatch look like a penthouse . nice

really ! hehe .

il Lido own private yatch . sometimes ppl book so they hv to do catering . therefore th chef hv to work in here . cool sia but i still dun wanna work here

my fave yatch of all .

it's much bigger than in th pic .

only saw 5 female , duno where th male gone to . only male got th beautiful 'fan' at th back . haha

one of th big bungalows , mostly expats stay here . gonna change my address here asap . hehe

2009-08-24T00:35:00.005+08:00

updated

went to take our pay at Goodwood Park . this hotel is really not good at all lo , money-minded . still dare cheat me of my timing .
suppose to keep th $ fer my bill and to buy some important things , but being a girl , just can't resist th thing called SHOPPING . haha , bought few things coz like got secret sale-somewhere-nice(hehe) but lucky still hv balance of money . and $1.2k soon [i'm hearing th word ka-ching ka-ching $_$ it's like music to my ear lor]

camwhore fer awhile :)

finally i bought this type of m(phosis flip flop , been searching fer it as at most shop it's oos . and i got this less than 10bucks . how cool is that coz real price is $36 , and this is th last piece :)

shopping . early bdae treat fer myself ? haha

stupid earpiece spoils pretty pic (-.-)
camwhore abit before parting our way .

these 2 'beggars' so pitiful sia .(LOL)
while waiting fer others and to kill time too . slack , 'sleep' and our secret play . hehe
cutey cutey pretty white cat . mary wants it !
it so fat de but still baby de
catwalk :))

muke satu2 mcm siak . Haha
eye problem ? confirm
nice face nice face !!
in th class , nothing to do as usual .
morning come in class , meng yao show me this creepy thing on his table . wth lizard come in eat sugar ar ?

knew it sure will happen de . it's just too bad , yup too bad fer YOU not me .
don't need to go around telling your 'new loved' frens why you been isolated , not why WERE you been ignored .
disgusting la . wonder why have to resort till like that juz to have a 'companion' in class
don't turn things around and make yourself look like th 'victim' when it's actually
you started it all first ;)
watch what you say , watch your back

2009-08-21T01:54:00.002+08:00

I've changed so much in the past few weeks. I haven't felt myself, or who I used to be in a while, and I'm not sure if this change is good for me.

I’ve learned that, in life, you’ll always make your own mistakes.
The ones where you wish you could go back in time and undo, after it’s already been done. Regret.

I’ve always told myself not to regret anything, though, because at one point, it was exactly what I wanted.

What if it never really was? Then all you do is feel regret, remorse. I can’t ever forgive myself for some things I’ve done. The things that I did only in the spur of the moment. The things I said without thinking about it first.

In my life, if you lose yourself, you lose everyone and everything in it, too. I want it all back, even though that’s selfish of me; even though I don’t deserve it.

2009-08-19T00:41:00.008+08:00

overdue pics . some are really 'old' coz i lazy upload . pics are in random order , haha

10 Aug
pics taken at Causeway Point maternity room . Haha . our 'slacking place' .

after watching movie UP . th movie was dam funny and touching , but kinda don't get some point coz too many story line .

Wednesday , 12 Aug
th day we went to Goodwood Park Hotel fer uniform trying . but in th end only short briefing and hotel tour . nxt day then can try uniform coz of some miscommunication .

coz of this , i had to 'leave' wahda alone at FEP KFC fer 30mins , ps hor

Thursday , 13 Aug
received my earpiece . like finally aft fcking 3or4mnth . mine is th red lady bug , others is Kat's

this girl is staying at my house fer almost 1week liao , coz she's dwn with fever and cough . very cute but very noisy especially when she cries . love her la

16 Aug ,Sunday
late night or was it monday morning
taken at 1am while waiting fer th bus to pick us up from th NUS Cultural Centre aft th NDP Rally . fun day working but nxt day i know my face look like $#&^@! when i step in class , coz arrive home at 2am and get to sleep only at 3am

this th cheesecake that i've been cutting since first day , at last we got to taste it . super nice . Mango cheesecake . th assisatant pastry chef said if we don't eat it now , we gonna regret coz nxt time we eat must pay and it's not cheap . and it's like our ONLY proper 'meal' of th day coz too busy to eat .

Tuesday , 18 Aug .

our mock interview . went well fer me i guess , hopefully won't be that bad . had fun 'rivalry' on wearing th nicest tops and highest heels with my girlfriend . not much pic coz pic not with me and some are at FB (ignore my face , as i was about to laugh coz daddy is purposely making jokes to make us laugh)

went home and we watch th movie Orphan . it was a great movie . Nicenice

she was unprepared fer th cam . haha

Monday , 17Aug
came to sch late(purposely) with my worst eye bags and giddy head . finally finish my themed cake , still unsatisfied with my bootie thou . but all's done and another load is outta my mind , only left with theory exam and I.A gonna start soon

our very own product . kuddos guys fer th hard work

Thursday , 20Aug
stupid napfa , make my leg till injured . went home early coz no class aft napfa so we watch movie at Vivo . Th last house on th left , stupid boring movie . th title sounds like its a scary movie , but duno what th hell th story line was all about . waste my $8.50

basically this week not much pics , coz busy and bored with nowhere to go and slack . ehh wait , was there pics ? i oso forgot where i saved th photos . Haha . i guess my mind is not working well now coz im getting sleepy .

2009-08-16T00:54:00.004+08:00

wish i could hv these . dam chio ! but very ex . US600+ so it's like SGD900+ . shall just imagine wearing it . LOL ! or maybe it's time fer me to find a prince charming who can buy fer me . hehe

2009-08-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

One day you will love me ,
the way i loved you .
One day you will think of me ,
the way i thought of you .
One day you will cry fer me ,
the way i cried fer you .
One day you will want me ,
but i don't want you ,

2009-08-10T02:04:00.006+08:00

click to see if it's real or fake

I appear to be the most happiest and confident person you will ever meet.
The truth is, I'm not.
That's just how I would like you to remember me as.
I am actually the total opposite of that.

I never openly expressed my feelings on this situation,
And I feel stupid for it.
I didn't want to be looked like a fool because it’s been some time that I’ve been more angry at myself for allowing it to go this far.
Never have I been so stuck on a feeling, it was to the point where I was so sick of it that I would cry.
Everything I heard & everything you did to me was mentally exhausting, confusing, & made me totally mind fucked.
I kept holding on to what you told me that night.
When I kept denying what you were telling me, but you assured me, & reassured me. Then eventually, I believed you.
Stupidly I let my wall down. I should've known better, because in the end of it, I was right.
For the little time that things were good, it made me so happy.
We were tight from the beginning. I miss the times when we’d talk about anything & everything. It’s sad how things are so different now.

I’m basically all over the hurt now & that feeling isn’t there anymore or maybe I just learned to live without it.

2009-08-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

planned to go watch fireworks but keep thinking that gonna damn crowded , decided to go Vivo at th last minute . arrived there slack awhile at th rooftop coz ppl say can see th helicopter bringing S'pore big flag fly by there , but we see none . in th end went to eat fer my break fast and went to slack again . can say it was boring but we had fun laughing and singing out loud .
<3

dun think far hor , i'm holding a pen

some people said we 3 look like triplets . LOL

2009-08-07T22:35:00.001+08:00

wasted sch day . do nothing coz of th stupid national day celebration which we nvr celebrate at all . only listen to past yrs national day songs & walk around sch to see boring bazaar . but we do had fun listening to Hari Raya songs played by one of th classes , funny + saddening listen to those songs . belom raye da menangis ehk . hahaha . and we had fun doing th 'tattoo' . had our gang pics . 135 gang , hehe
aft sch met wahda , wanted to watch th movie UP , but super duper dam alot of kids queueing up till duno where at J.Point . really long th queue till we pek chek so ended up watching nothing . went Lot1 to pei wahda take her books at th library while feeda head to work . boring day .
at night went Tampines 1 with meimei just to fulfill my cravings fer J.Co Donuts . hehe . ended up we went baq home late and tio scold by some stupid old man * ps not my dad ar *

Mo & Viv doing some deco on th board fer th ugly classroom

135 :D
my new tattoo that doesn't even last fer 1 day , th auntie say can last fer 1 week . lie

"that post" hor

2009-08-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

was it a wise choice ? but i know it's fer my own good and benefits be it now or in the future :D

2009-08-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

fasting month is just around th corner . 19 more days to be exact . and i'm started to miss my Quranic lesson ( hadn't had any proper sessions ever since started sch ) such a bad Muslim ain't i ? haiz . and most importantly i miss my Arabic ! lucky i still remember to write my name ( haha , joking la ! i won't ever forget our ancestor language )
i think after such ' mishap ' upon myself , i'm starting to do soul-search , alot of thinking and most importantly REPENT ! yeah you heard me . i'm turning myself back to God after all those moment of folly . I have sinned and committed way too much . I admit i'm a bad example here , coz i forgot bout HIM in my happy days but kneeling back to HIM after i had my retribution . just hope i'll be forgiven coz i know HE is th Most Merciful , Most Gracious and Most Powerful . *not trying to discriminate any religions out there , but i'm just proud being a Muslim and i'm here to say bout my religion on my blog .

F3

2009-07-29T13:07:00.002+08:00

2009-07-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog , but blogger got probs . so i shall update pics etc when blogger is back to normal ;D * wonders how long will that be *

2009-07-17T13:57:00.002+08:00

did i even tell you whatever happens ? know why ? coz i know too well whats your reaction will be and what you gonna do with it .
i think you had some misunderstanding here .
i told them i dun want to tell them my stories in THE CLASS coz i know ppl wil kpkb and listen to what i wanna say .

i DID told them everything after that . we all DON'T like to talk or speak anything in front of you coz of your attitude thingy .

just imagine , whenever we talk you will act like doing smth or playing with ur eyes to look at us (dont think i nvr see it) and in th end record/post it in ur tweet world .

i dare you reply or comment in my blog .
defend urself if you think whatever i wrote is wrong (i dun think what i write is all fake)

beg fer forgiveness ? muahahaha

2009-07-16T23:57:00.008+08:00

knn !! my mood changed dam fast when i saw it .

walao ehk , you got issue with me having a boyfriend ? 'sometimes having a girlfriend is better than having your boyfriend..'

you got issue with me not telling my SUPER GIRLFRIEND my personal probs ? 'if you doesn't honestly feel like telling ur girlfriends bout your life, then, don't bother to tell them anything.. such a shame.. ' 'cos they trust you and they tell you almost anything.. but you don't even trust them.. so why bother them telling you anything for.. :D ' (do i even tell you bout my personal life ? it's you being nosey listening to people talking .)

what the FUCK la sia !

whose being kpkb here ? whose the one acting all these while ? 'all i can say is that i do deserve it.. so, maybe you'll get yours soon also... cos i repent ( DO YOU ?! ) '

whose the one behaving like a beggar ? ppl talk to you , ppl let you hang arnd and yet bloody coward , eavesdropping on people but in th end just 'tweets are all thoughts that need to write out, so that my box won't explode that much' .(you and ur fantasy world , get what i mean xP )

you really asking fer touble ain't you .

here's more : 'it's sooo funny to hear that you GET CHEATED by this guy that you TELL EVERYTHING TO but not your girlfriends... hahaha... funny, funny!!' (your bloody business isit ?!) atas kepale ader setan , tu pasal ko suke when people had their unhappy days . SIAL !

'cos they trust you and they tell you almost anything.. but you don't even trust them.. so why bother them telling you anything (are you jealous that i didn't tell you bout this , that you had to secretly listen to what i tell people).. :D (you sound very happy hor) '

'oh ya, there's a LIAR in class... so far i know.. what the person writes is totally the opposite!! gosh, not trying to bad-mouth but TRUE!!' (who's lying right now ? me or YOU ?!)

did i ever rake up th past again aft all those things ?! did i provoke you again ?!

when i said i forget bout evrything , i do . coz i or basically WE do talk to you now and then .

we still treat you as normal in class , but you were THE ONE acting to still be one of us , mixing around . but outside class , mix arnd with other ppl coz no one to befriend with such a hypocrite . remember you talked bad bout Wani , bout yolander , bout dionis and even bout ur so-called "close friend" fer now ; naqiyah . i bet you dun remember coz you can't afford to not having 'escort' and leaving alone in sch .

who bad-mouth who ?! who started all these RUBBISH again ?! opps i forgot , you only know how to write it down in there rather than open your stinky mouth

'maybe it's time you stop looking and judging others!! it's time for SELF-CHECK!!!! (who judging who? it's you who shld be looking at urself in mirror , lil mummy girl )cos the truth hurts (i know).. :) hahaha' (you really happy hor talking bad bout people)

'it's up to you to take it in or not' (right back at ya . it seem you can't take it thats why you still have it in ur stupid mind and write it ONLY now )

what i tweet had been tweeted before , just a feeling but not sure also.. hahaha.. :) (bobal keling per anak *toot* ni)

LET ME TELL YOU SMTH .

THIS IS MY BLOG , SO I HAD EVERY RIGHT TO WHAT I WANNA WRITE OR SAY .

YOU NVR MENTIONED NAMES BUT YEAH I DEFINETELY KNEW YOU TALKING BOUT ME , i can find evidence fer that .

MOST IMPORTANTLY !! DONT THINK CHANGING YOUR WEBSITE URL , I CAN'T FIND YOU . YEAH , I'VE BEEN TRACKING YOUR WHOLE FUCKING LIFE , YOUR FANTASY TWITTER LIFE . CAN JUST SAY I 'HACK' YOU , SO IF YOU TRY TO CLOSE / CHANGE OR MAKE NEW ACCOUNT , BE READY TO GET A LOYAL FOLLOWER IN YOUR WHOLE LIFE . IT SOUNDS CREEPY COZ YOU START THE GAME FIRST , SO DON'T BACK OUT ;D I GOT YOUR EVERY DIRTY LITTLE SECRET OTHER THEN YOUR BELOVED TWITTER =D

'buy hp use bursary money . buy evrything oso use mummy money . grow up will ya ?!' get a job , get a life so you can afford to buy a single pathetic bootie heels . don't act like you know everything bout branded stuff or think that you can afford to buy it . having to eat outside oso you feel th pinch and people had to pay fer you , still had th nerve to go NZ . backstab people , talk bad bout others , act innocent to gain sympathy frm people and most importantly , behaving like a bitch infront of guys to act cute and show you like him .

you had better watch your back from now on .

2009-07-10T23:26:00.001+08:00

thats what we've been doing in class recently , much of slacking time when doing th miniature things . i dun like working with small things or anything that had to do with creativity ( coz my art sucks ) but hopefully this final semester i can do th theme cake alot better . btw i lazy upload my creation coz its fugly .

so aft class , get chnged and went to bugis . SHOPPING ! lotsa things catches my eyes and alot more other things i gotta buy , but $$ is decreasing . this mnth must save save coz just applied new line fer new phone . * walao mary , you gotta get ur ass move and get a job ! * arghh cnt tahan living life w/o $$ . money fall frm sky much better , evryday oso n go shopping

fierce but cute face . LOL
as usual , camwhore ;D
just ignore my face can le ( -.- )

like i told adeq , ' pantang tengok cermin , mesti nk kene amek gamba . Haha ' pandai2 la translate

feeda trying th new Addidas jacket . all th things in th Addidas shop nvr put price de coz too expensive , scare ppl dun want buy

2009-07-07T23:02:00.003+08:00

6 July

sch re-opens today but nth much . just listen to 'lecture' bout that stupid H1N1 pre-caution thingy .

suppose class ends at 11 but as usual drag till 11.30 . aft class went places to survey on salon fer new and nice hair style . went bukit gombak with lotsa shops but with not so great offer , then off to yew tee to look at few shops there , but ddnt choose any coz either too expensive or not suitable or just plain common . then went back B.Gombak but in th end go bak home and i cut my hair around my neighbourhood which is much cheaper and better . However stupid aunty no sense of measurement cut my bangs till so short when i ask it to be cut below eyebrow (-.-)

7 July

class ends abit early , abit oni . coz she cnt let us go off way too early even thou there's nothing more to do . but still get to enjoy our previous leftover of Tiramisu and brownie . rush down to BPP to get wahda pants altered . actually feeda wanted to do it too but she brought wrong pants so maybe next few days then go again . bought newspaper to look fer movies . settled fer Drag Me To Hell at JP . gave it 4/5 coz th ending sucks . but overall it was ok apart of th disgusting old hag . fking disgusting la sia . want vomit seeing her acts . and it was suppose to be horror movie but 70% of it we laugh through out coz we make lotsa fun bout some scene were really fun . went reach home and ask mother to call that stupid ice-cream shop to ask bout my pay . call le he quickly say come down to th branch before 10 to collect th $$ , and even mother that he got send msg saying that it can be collect by today , but i check no msg frm him (STUPID) . went out liao , then go back home again to ask my mei to pei me go there . lucky i return back home coz mother say he just send th message to my phone *coz i nvr bring phone. * mother check and th msg was just send de . still can lie to mother say he got msg today afternoon . fking liar ! but heck care coz now got $_$ liao so gonna buy new phone tomorrow *hopefully* ( =D )

2009-07-01T03:20:00.007+08:00

well i may sound mean in th previous post , but it's all heartfelt not only by myself as it's from others too . that's me for that . i've been keeping it inside and will shoot when th time is ripe or when i can't take it anymore . however once i've let it all out or written it down , i will forget about everything and forgo whatever unhappiness of th past . and people tends to get upset , mad or wont befriend me anymore , but hey i don't mind coz it's not to my lost maybe that's why i have limited friend . thou it's not so good in physical appearance and i dun feel good bout it too . i've never think that i'm perfect nor had never done any wrong , it's just that i do know what's right and what's bad so i try not to do it too much and too extreme to invite hateness from people around . you grows from mistake , you change from people critic , you'll be grateful to receive advices from people be it good or otherwise .

btw i nvr mention any name in th previous post , so anyone out there don't come blame me or give me weird look and black faces when school re-opens . CHEERS =)

2009-06-25T13:34:00.009+08:00

yeah , finally i'm blogging . actually not so busy la these days but kinda lazy to update and sumore my laptop charger is spoil , so cnt online much .

had so much fun that i was a lil' late fer some appointment . and these few days no do anything much , go out oni slacking . stay home oso more jialat , see th monsters face , actually i dun want to fight or quarrel de , but she is juz too irritating and keep finding fault and start frst but always blame me fer starting th fire . well , it's kinda pay back time de to what you did to me first , so don't flame up la when th time comes . stupid . back to story , at least i got comp to keep me accompany but oso cnt use too long coz still got others who wanna use it . so yeah , i cnt wait fer tmr $_$ kaching kaching
i got smth to say ;D

you think we goona die without you ? dream on
you think we no money go shop to do printing isit ? we can still afford la
you likes to talk bad bout others behind their back but when people talk bout your attitude ,
you don't like it and will give black faces . have you ever thought of people feelings in th frst place
when you talk bad bout people ? you one funny lil creature man .
whenever we eat out , we HAVE to pay some of your bills coz you will always act 'blur' or purposely dun want to pay . and excuses are , "Oh i ddnt bring enough money ." or
"i want to th money coz mother ask me buy etcetc." or
"so much is th bill ? yours is bla bla $ , mine is bla bla $ . oh did i gv wrong amount ? tmr i pay you back hor."
th frst excuses is so common from your mouths , when we pay for you if that 'excuses' comes ,
use your la , common sense , pay us back th next day or when you had th money .
second excuses , more lame . if you wanna keep th money to buy things for ur mum ,
then dun order anything or juz tell us straight you no $ so dont need follow us in th frst place
third , worst lo . your 'TOMMORROW' has turn into days , weeks , months and even years la sia .
if we ask you pay back everything , you sure cough to death de . thats why we avoiding you if we goin
somewhr coz we had enough of ur attitude .
here's smth . you tell F you wanna give her one of ur clothe coz you nvr wear it animore ,
but when th time you give it to her , you have th cheek to ask her pay you for it . you said in th frst place ,
you want to GIVE her , but till now you wait for her to pay you . and worst , still ask her pay you
full price , when its a second hand piece . You really weird la .
And now you wanna be calculative to us , saying you wont ..... for our stuff coz of th treatment you receive ?
think what you done to use before , think how you treat people . i guess this is retribution for you .
one more thing . your MOUTH
keep talking bad bout people behind th back . not only bout others ,
bout us and even some strangers you dun even know .
can't you keep your mouth shut for a day or even juz for a second ? we've had enough when it's always
you who do th talking and we had to force ourself to listen to you . pity F who had to suffer so much .
and when we were talking , you like to interupt and act as in you know what we talking about ,
"oh that things right ? yaya i know , correct la" LOL !
and since last year , you like to speak ill bout Someone that you really hate . now you turning into exactly
like her . *you think yourself what was bout it that you turn into her*
but i think she's alot better than you , she's not as evil as you and mostly she catches it very fast
why we aren't talking to her much , unlike you who is very slow . you talk bout her try not to act pious ,
coz she bla bla bla , but you even worse la . still dare talk bout people .
and some you only dare to Write in th Net or complain to your precious mum
and not talk face to face to us . Coward
you keep asking people to wait for you , but you inpatient person cnt wait for anione for too long .
you keep pulling F whereever you wanna go . you thin she likes it ? she even tell us it's hurting her arms .
you think it's funny isit pulling people hand till blue black ? you crazy fella .
too much to write bout you la , and im not gonna waste animore time and energy posting up bout you .
but be proud coz i've write up smth bout you in my precious blog .
*not anione can get this special treatment hor*
one advice for you .
think bout it everything . think before hand bout what you wanna do and not complaining juz coz you not happy . you dun live alone in this world . dun be selfish

2009-06-11T22:41:00.004+08:00

demo was so-so . more to disapopointment to me . but overall th Canadaian guys were fun and funny (Haha) . duno why some products i do de like cnt make it , too nervous gua . haizz

went to watch movie again . last minute . [Haha , funny story *not gonna post here* oni we knows it wink . tmr making asian sweets fer th visitors , and lotsa photo taking session is expected (LOL)

my suspicious proven true , i know what's you've been doing behind my back .

i've witnesses and allibi of what you've been doing .

don't act innocent when you are not .

i shall say you're still young so dont do things that will make me hate you forever ,

using my things without permission , using my accounts without permission

and now you wanna scold vulgar at me ?

juz one advice from me ,

Jangan ikot macam perangai pompan sial tu ,

Jangan maen giler dgn aku , nnt kau yang hancur .

Jangan sampai aku sepak muke ko macam die threaten nak tumbok muke orang laen .

Jangan ingat die tu baek sangat , tngok dulu perangai setan die before ko nak fikir aku 'jahat' ,

what i've done to you since you're small is nvr appreciated , all long gone forgotten but whatever she did even tiniest things , you idolized her , you kneel down fer her , you can even kiss her feet.

tngok sikit die tu has been toying with you , dolling with you , ordering you to do things her way

and you nvr realise abit coz you've been blinded by her fake 'kindness' to you thats so little compare to her evil doings thats been done on you before all this .

dun want say animore liao la . waste my energy writing , waste my brain cell thinking bout all this . but hey , you should be grateful that i write bout you in my blog so people will know how 'guai' are you actually lil kid . i dun mean to make you look bad or what la here but since you've started th fire , we shall play it till it dies off . salute

2009-06-08T21:20:00.006+08:00

tdy practically just doing spring cleaning but last minute she informed 4 of us that we hv to do th trial again . and dam shyt we all nvr bring th recipe ended up she bad mood and i had to emergency call home to ask fer th recipe . lucky my mei woke up adi , talk to her on th phone fer th recipe but halfway my call is cut off coz no more prepaid (i'm freaking mad bout this coz i rmbr my value left arnd 5buks but during th call tdy i saw it oni left fcking 0.75cents . cb) back to th story , she debrief us bla bla bla and eventually she told us to come early tmr to do th product rather then tdy . so yeah , gone off arnd 230 and with nowhr to go aft sch , we ended up searching at newspaper fer movie time slot . settled fer th movie Blood; the last vampire . th movie was dam cool and great . gave it 5/5 coz i like th storyline and most importantly my fav korean actress , Jeon Ji-Hyun .

in this movie , she can converse in 3 languages fluently ; english , japanese and korean(i think) unlike one if th actress[if not wrong is hong konger or maybe japanese] coz she sucks in speaking english coz i cnt even understand .

i like th sword la . and th way she hold and use it is dam cool . love it

2009-06-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

too many pics to be post up fer tdy event . keep a look out at my facebook or if i got mood i shall upload it here but wont be as much as i post at facebook .

love

2009-06-04T02:18:00.002+08:00

hungry adi waiting fer food to be ready (haha)
LOL !
see this 2 monkey (HAHA)

finally it's th time we've been waiting fer . Tiramisu !! (LOL) but still test is post-pone again (-.-)

mixing mascarpone cheese and whipped cream
yummy expensive mascarpone cheese
this is not mascarpone cheese hor ! this th finger sponge mix before baking
baked finger sponge
assembling th cakes . cocoa powder
a thick layer of th mascarpone cheese follow by th finger sponge

soaking th sponge with coffee

another way of making Tiramisu . it start with mascarpone rather than sponge as use in Tiramisu Cake
cocoa powder follow by mascarpone cheese
see how thick th mascarpone cheese is
lastly cocoa powder again

both before going to th blast freezer
deco

like Esplanade (haha)
finished product
this 4kg of cake can be sell up to 300 bucks ! following 5 star hotel standard de la
being eaten up by monster (LOL)

2009-06-03T01:40:00.001+08:00

tdy oso class serves no purpose . could hv end early but had listen her talk this and that , and discuss bout th pinic which is being drag fer like hell , so class finish at 4 . sumore we 4 had to stay back again to re-practice th products fer demo . ended up she say unsatisfactory , waste time , waste effort . since its like that , shld say earlier ma what to do and what not to do , or even need not ask us to stay back again . finish everything at arnd 8+pm and i took my own sweet time going back home while sms-ing babyy otw back .

candid . Haha
i oso forgot what this pic suppose to be
they bully Si ming back . Lol
we nth to coz duno what to do .
see bernard so hardworking , so dilligent
last minute rush to do plating but in th end she say no need do (=.=)

sweet

2009-06-02T01:07:00.000+08:00

while on the way to sch , saw th cloud like super nice . notice smth on th cloud ma ?
well test was post-pone again . waste my energy again studying from late night to wake up early morning . basically tdy class was like no purpose , and she could hv let us go baq early or in fact no need to come to sch . duno class ends what time and we went FEP to shop . bought quite few but yeah we 3 had similar crop jackets . Nice

feeda pose maintain ehk . vogue sia

2009-06-01T00:53:00.000+08:00

sch as per normal , but last minute when i was changing to chef uni , Si ming & Bernard told me that we 4 had to do th practicing fer th Canadian counterpart coming to our sch nxt week . i was lucky enuf i ddnt had any plan nor appointment that day so no choice had to stay till late to do . as it was totally unprepared , we had so many shortage of many things . frm lacking of some ingredients , lacking of moulds etc etc . in th end tio scold coz we do things unplanned and 'unsightly' end products . like duh , she nvr tell us what to do , what to use bla bla but oni know how to marah2 . dun care liao la

2009-05-31T23:28:00.001+08:00

Here are some interesting Google facts collected from all over the net:

1. The name ‘Google’ was an accident. A spelling mistake made by the original founders who thought they were going for ‘Googol’.
update:It was a typo on the first investment check they received.Also the domain name "googol.com" was already taken

2. Gmail was internally used for nearly 2 years prior to launch to the public. They discovered there was approximately 6 types of email users, and Gmail has been designed to accommodate these 6.

3. They listen to every feedback actively. Emailing Google isn’t emailing a blackhole.

4. Google employees are encouraged to use 20% of their time working for their own projects. Google News, Orkut are both examples of projects that grew from this working model.

5. The prime reason the Google home page is so bare is due to the fact that the founders didn’t know HTML and just wanted a quick interface. In fact it was noted that the submit button was a long time coming and hitting the RETURN key was the only way to burst Google into life. [LOL!!]

6. Due to the sparseness of the homepage, in early user tests they noted people just sitting looking at the screen. After a minute of nothingness, the tester intervened and asked ‘Whats up?’ to which they replied “We are waiting for the rest of it”. To solve that particular problem the Google Copyright message was inserted to act as a crude end of page marker.[ I like this . HAHAHA]

7. One of the biggest leap in search usage came about when they introduced their much improved spell checker giving birth to the “Did you mean…” feature. This instantly doubled their traffic, but they had some interesting discussions on how best to place that information, as most people simply tuned that out. But they discovered the placement at the bottom of the results was the most effective area.

8. The infamous “I feel lucky” is nearly never used. However, in trials it was found that removing it would somehow reduce the Google experience. Users wanted it to be kept. It was like a comfort button.

9. Orkut is very popular in Brazil. Orkut was the brainchild of a very intelligent Google engineer who was pretty much given free reign to run with it, without having to go through the normal Google UI procedures, hence the reason it doesn’t look or feel like a Google application. They are looking at improving Orkut to cope with the loads it places on the system.

10. Google makes small changes on their products very often. They will sometimes trial a particular feature with a set of users from a given network subnet; for example Excite@Home users often get to see new features. They aren’t told of this, just presented with the new UI and observed how they use it.

11. Google has the largest network of translators in the world

12. They use the 20% / 5% rules. If at least 20% of people use a feature, then it will be included. At least 5% of people need to use a particular search preference before it will make it into the ‘Advanced Preferences’.

13. They have found in user testing, that a small number of people are very typical of the larger user base. They run labs continually and always monitoring how people use a page of results.

14. Google logs each search queries into its systems. More ever Google got patents for hardware designing too.

15. Quote: Give Users What They Want When They Want It

16. Quote: Integrate Sensibly

2009-05-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

dam funny !!

2009-05-30T19:09:00.003+08:00

this is super cool ! Suju is getting recognize world-wide .

2009-05-29T01:56:00.004+08:00

ddnt went to sch tdy coz my eyes had bcome worse . one word ; FUGLY . went polyclinic to get mc ( not medi LOLS ) and its th worse in my whole life . its not th system nor th service that is bad but its th fcking old woman doctor . walao she do her job real slow lo and she like dun even know how to use th comp . wth !! and she dun look like S'porean , more like frm China coz frm head to toe , frm th look of her face , frm her way of dressing its definetely look like China ppl . and i ended up wait more than an hour waiting to be consult . that is why i always prefer a guy doc rather than slow poke old doc like her fer consultation .

and i really was bored sitting at home as whenever you're in sch , you wished you were at home , and when you're at home , you wish you're in sch or outside having fun .

2009-05-28T01:50:00.000+08:00

fck ! i wasnt told that th test was post-poned to nxt tues . waste my brain cell and my tired body to wake up early morning to revise coz ystd nite ddnt study . whatever la .

learnt diping chocolate which is dam easy and ' nice ' ( fasting kaper Haha )

went far east aft class , and yeah GSS has started ! my hand dam itchy and my head kept thinking on th 2 bottoms , 1 top & 1 cropped jacket . argh i cnt wait to buy it !! feel like going there again this sat but im still short of few bucks . haizz " i shall do my trick to get $$ "

2009-05-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

received phone call frm Kat ystd that my prac test has been pushed forward to today . so had to drag my unprepared body to sch , i meant my head was totally blank coz duno what to do fr th plating . caught zhariff & debbie coming at 3pm coz they wasnt informed that their timing had chnged ( some matters that kinda make angry bout this shall not mention ) . th test was relaxing juz like normal practical class but towards th ending duno why feel so panic and ended late by 10mins . had visitors frm duno whr who keep praising zhrif praline , and i was behind him doing my plating wanting to laugh but had to tahan (Haha) .

oh ya , th kitchen was dam real dirty coz its frm morning till last shift ddnt clean , so we had to clean every single mess . dam pissed la coz been hearing frm normal aftnoon shift that some ppl aren't doing their duty when it comes to cleaning , coz right aft they done their practices they will run to R&D room to t0k c0ck & laughing . and tdy we 4 tio th same thing whr its th same grp of ppl that isnt doing any ' tough ' cleaning job , leaving th girls and poor boys slogging our way keeping th room pick&span . they return baq to th kitchen aft we had done everything and all they had to do is some ' touch up ' which basically th whole kitchen is already clean . and juz when we were about to have a bit of rest , we were told to wash some things whr its shldnt be us coz they had to finish what they had ' start doing it and could finish it themselves ' by saying their hands are tired , but what bout us whose some encountered really back aches . Geddit ?

well im juz stating facts , not to hurt any parties involved[which i nvr and shall not mention anywhr , anymore] (where some ppl may critic or ddnt realise) that i felt like it was during our frst time in kitchen whr everyone ddnt lay single hand to help each other ( should i say lack of team work ) . haizz

class ended at 7+ and we 4 goes off anrd 730 . one goes diff way while me 2 others slack arnd th clementi area fer some chat and puffing . but we slacked till 10 without realising coz we were too over it while chatting & laughing . mcm da biase gitu tapi gerek abess nyer (Haha) bussed home with D to th interchnge and arrive home at 12pm . cool or what seyy. str8 home sleep without revising fer tmr ppr ( =X )

2009-05-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

tdy class was dam boring , but good thing is we're definitely gonna learn how to make tiramisu but sadly not making it . class was kept short fer th frst time , so head down to causeway point again to buy debbie pressie which we had in mind frm ystd . bla bla bla aft th fagg with adq , head baq to home . time passed by so quickly lo coz i ddnt even realise i've been coming baq home really late . Haha

2009-05-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

<33

basically wanted to go to th sch gym , but one irritating lao fei pe tcher say they having napfa so cnt use th gym , like wth i oni want to use th gym which nobody using and am not gonna disturb th napfa test ma . stupid la . so ended up waiting fer wahda & feeda before heading to causeway to find daddy debra pressie . had pizza before th present hunting and as usual , we had lotsa fun while having my so-called early dinner , their so-called late lunch (LOL) .

while waiting fer them outside , actually wanted to take pic of them doing their works but this lil' girl gv me this priceless face (HAHA)
feeda forget-th-name baked rice which is like half gone before suddenly reminded to take pics of it
see , she too hungry i guess ( ^_^ )
adq forget-th-name whitish baked rice . oso half gone liao
my order which came dam late , they say it will be 15-20mins frm ordering time , but it was more than that coz adq & feeda's came frst and they were half way eating when eventually mine came . wtf can !
pizza with like half bottle of th cheese . we had it refilled lo (LOL
cute priceless faces of th 2

Chef Hanafi cooking show " On how to temper chocolate "

sry fer some bad quality of th video ( which i totally duno why coz during recording nth goes wrong ) and th soft volume ( coz he kinda far frm me ) *you really have to max ur speaker volume coz duno why too soft to hear it properly . better still wear earpiece or headset so you can listen it to yourself clearly*

if you listen carefully or even see from his movement , it's definately hillarious . dam funny la coz we mostly ddnt do works during prac but laughing out loud frm his ' cooking show '

2009-05-22T12:41:00.000+08:00

Chocolate Cigar

prac was ok tdy but i tink i fail my measurement le, cut oso can hv diff sizes (=.=)

aft class, go canteen with them all then had a puff with kat at bus-stop then go baq sch wait fer adq and feeda to finish class . went vivo to hv late lunch at banquet then window shopping . a lot of fun coz me and feeda tried on many dam high heels and so-called ' model fight' at th runway at Topshop . funny la .

btw i found a pretty nice heels at Topshop worth $159 which now having sales and cost only $59!! dam cheap can ! and i oso found a nice vest frm Zara, Forever21 & Topshop where i cnt decide on which to buy . but i've set my eye on th black satin legging frm Topshop, super nice . so these all shall go to my 'asap top shopping list '

2009-05-16T15:07:00.015+08:00

TRAINING AT SWISSOTEL@STAMFORD

went fer th training tgth with mdm . arrive city hall an hour early so went burger king coz mdm hvnt had lunch . exactly at 3 went to meet th ppl at th hotel lobby . introducing , receive th Wine&Cuisine magazine(which we'll be featured soon [-.-] ) and our recipe fer tdy production then meet th chef and her twin . both pastry chef sia . cool !

here'e th time . we just followed them whrever they go thinking going to th pastry kitchen , but we keep taking th stairs up & down so many times and keep changing and coming to & frm th two buildings finding th kitchen(it's like somekind of warm-up before th start of th production sia) . i was like th chef duno whr th kitchen meh ?(btw th hotel had many kitchens) however we was told there's miscommunication so we didnt had proper place fer training . ended up use chef Ivy's twin de kitchen(chef Ivy is from Swissotel Merchant Cord@Orchard while her twin if from Swissotel@Stamford) which oni had 1set of utensils fer everything coz they still had to make they own production . watch chef do demo(which is dam fast coz she's a real pro , and she keep saying that she always use her fingers & lips to test temperature while cooking, nvr use thermometer . real pro ;D ) then its our turn to do . all th way frm starting demo till end our every move is being captured by stupid photographer(who keeps commenting , asking stupid question like as if we duno what we're doing and what chef were teaching) and his weird partner . me paired with si ming while bernard was with zharif .

really learnt alot during this time . frm th work life in this industry to their utensils to everything that is diff& nvr get to learn at sch .

suddenly had in mind that i cnt wait fer attachment . hehe

tdy menu was ; Light Choc Mousse , Baked Lemon & Banana Dumpling, Lemond Curd , Sable , Yoghurt Sabayon , Almond Cream , Strawberrry Semi-Jelly .

they use th expensive Valrhona 64% choc fer th mousse . nice

*stupid sia tuesday had to demo on all these to class [-.-]*

chef Ivys' plating . nice
close up of chef creation
my plating [>.<]
testing my photographing skills . LOL zharif & si mings' plating . forgot to snap a pic of bernard creation [-.-]
far behind frst pic is bernards' plating , ps couldnt see clearly .

2009-05-14T13:40:00.000+08:00

REVIVING MY DEAD BLOG . LOL

New term ; Chocolate ! but too bad im not a fan of choc especially dark choc[-.-] so many things to learn , so many things to do and so many thing to get done within one month . projectprojectproject!!! its killing me but not too bad coz finishing soon . and my curry fillings had to be chnge due to some error during trial , so now using petai fer my fillings . sounds weird but its a good choice coz fer th frst time in my life tasting petai , it was dam good man thou i still dont like th stinking smell of it . so here's many many over-due pics fer th past few weeks since sch re-open [-.-]

2009-05-04T23:35:00.001+08:00

there seems to be alot of things to be updated / uploaded but i cnt get it right out of my brain to write down here . dam too many things which makes me duno whr to start

2009-05-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

my face muscle is dam tired laughing from watching this funny video .

actually th whole show itself is real funny but this particular part makes me cry from laughing .

2009-05-02T21:22:00.004+08:00

and th internet is baq to normal liao ,

and i found out aft being told by ppl that my blog is like sotsot ,

and becoz of that i had to 'close' it fer maintenance ,

and i just realise th problem lies with Internet Explorer ,

so peepos , view this blog with Safari or Google Chrome or Mozilla Firefox

*rmbr , do not use Internet Explorer if you don't wish to shock urself . hehe

my previous blog cnt view by MF but now it's better fer my blog .

wonder whats th prob sia

2009-04-25T20:32:00.003+08:00

arghh !! stupid MIO !! now internet cnt be use , and to chnge it muz pay $100++ but it's kinda waste 'coz my broadband plan ending in 4mnths . angry adi la !! duno want to sign up fer new plan but it's oso wasteful coz if sign up new plan , my current broadband plan will be untouched but i still hv to pay $90++ mnthly ...

now last minute decided come library play internet but but but , th library is closing in 30min or less !! fuck sia !!

gtg liao let meimei use !

*btw my blog hv to let it rot and left unfinished coz duno when can online again .

ps fer th ugly blog

2009-04-12T23:19:00.002+08:00

woots ! i lost 1okg . thx to Mr. A and sometimes Mrs. B

muahahahahaha

but i need to , i HAVE to lose another 1okg

2009-04-11T23:20:00.003+08:00

and i shall update my trip experience when i got some photos ready =D

*updated*

yeah ! and finally im here to update on th Bali trip .

frst day of th trip :

arrive airport 615am(dam early) with mum(to me its a funny story bout this but shant post it here =x )
aft they had breakfast , hug mother(kept holding on to my tears during this part) , checked in luggage , tot mother had gone baq but hvnt and she asked me called ah ma; and this part i no choice but to let my tears out(LOL)
mother gone baq and we had a puff secretly before checking in
th plane ride was ok to me , ddnt had th pressure etc thingy like they all do . and i think this ride is kinda not so good like it was unorganised and all th information announcement sucks even though there's a shuai steward amongst (hehe) and i mean dam shuai
due to some delayed , we arrive late but still when check in to hotel oni one room is ready.
waited fer other room fer fcking long , we gone out fer some walk , shopping and look arnd th beach ( th beach was dam nice but too bad i ddnt go coz i wont wanna get dark again)
shop till night , had dinner at A&W and went baq to hotel fer swimming & drinking sessions ( wanted to go club or smth but cancelled and hv it in hotel room instead)
while they were playing and drinking , i went dwn to make use of th free internet to get online
aft awhile kat came dwn , play th come abit then we both went to th pool area enjoying star gazing and had some girls talk

i tink we sleep abit early th frst night coz evryone drunk liao (LOL)

second day:

woke up fer breakfast and went fer another shopping sessions (some scary parts during this time , as mentioned in Kats' blog)
had lunch and continue with a lil' bit more shopping before going baq fer their beach outing sessions(ddnt follow as mentioned above fer not getting dark)
they returned baq and we went fer seafood dinner and went baq to hotel . me & Kat went fer our spa and massage sessions(it was dam good man!) (ps kat fer that embarrassing moment)
aft that they had supper and we had some tv sessions and went to sleep

third day:

planned to wake up early and had another free massage sessions and a final visit to th beach but everything was cancelled 'coz evryone ddnt manage to wake up in time coz all sleep late night before
had breakfast again before having to rush baq to our room coz Pak Wayang(our driver) had arrived to fetched to th airport
we rushed fer evrything but th plane was delayed once again(-.-)
th trip baq on th plane was more fun(to me) coz saw lotsa volcano , mountain , small and big island and of course seeing S'pore frm a birds eye view
th trip baq was much more better with th announcement more clearer, rules stated clearly , more organised and evrything much nicer than trip going but this trip baq oni had stewardess no shuai steward . even th pilot is a lady but th captain pilot is a guy

thats all i can remember on th experience and thoughts on this trip . I WANT GO ANOTHER HOLIDAY TRIP . A SHOPPING SPREEE HOLIDAY OSO CAN LA . ALONE TRIP OSO CAN AND WILL BE GOOD =)

red present fer babyy (shall remain a secret =X )
my fav t-shirts bought there , even wore it on th 2nd day . these t-shirts seems small but it definite fits me to a T. Nice ! I Like ! oh ya , all th t-shirts are dam cheap sia , anrd $3+ spore money . kinda regret ddnt buy much thou and most regretted was i ddnt buy th LV luggage bag , it was dam super cheap (thats why must go holiday shooping spree again)
bought some shirts fer my mei

see this kid oso keypokeypo wan to be in th pic (LOL)

things bought fer mum , dad , xiaomei and jie

2009-04-06T22:32:00.008+08:00

*blowingoffcobwebsfrmmyblog* my really that old liao meh till got spider webs ? its not old la, just too long nvr update , MIA gua (LOL) . still lazy to update that much thou so i'll just put it in point form ;D

2nd April

er-jie b'dae , as request frm her i bake oreo cheesecake on her day .
using my own recipe , method etc to create my own cheesecake .
since its my frst trial on my very own recipe , i'm not quite satisfied with th outcome (shn't say wad it is xD )
overall everyone on th house love it exclude me .

on this fateful day oso , my lovely cat got into a fight with th neighbour crazy cat . that cat ddnt seem to be injured but my cat tio alot of injuries ; 5 scratches on his upper arm , fever , fractured tail bone , lost appetite fer 2days , vomit 5times , couldnt sleep whole night on that day , completely chnged as in ignoring my call till this day , lost quite alot of fur during th fight . wth la . so on 3rd april dad brought him to th vet and doc diagnose him with fever which causes th lost of appetite and th fractured bone is not that serious . so now he is recovering well but still feverish and not so much appetite . *dam hard to give him th medi coz he keep spit out or even vomit out his meal coz cnt take th medi taste* fer that 2 fateful days i cried like what thinking what happens if he really leaves me , till babyy had to console me and say Kecik is like my own baby that i cried so badly .

cutie Kecik

his anitbiotic medi which he keeps spit it out and very dam hard to force it dwn his throat . doc do so easy but when i do is like im fighting with him (-.-)
duno whats this syrup fer , maybe fer his fever . this medi stinks sio !

duno when is th date or wad i did , but i rmbr went out with adq and feeda find work(till now not even 1 replies) , take care of Kecik till 3am coz worried like hell bout him , bla bla bla i dont rmbr much wad i did this weekend (haha)

*i still hvnt pack my bag sio !!

2009-03-27T00:20:00.019+08:00

class chalet but not all was here thou . quite boring oso coz mostly i do was feeding mosquito (=.=) watch tv den go baq . ddnt get to eat oso coz stupid fire took so long to light up arghh . 7+ went home coz need go baq early while others overnight and continue with bbq . stupid bus was super long to arrive and duper long way it went , 2nd bus oso dam long . total waited 30mins fer each bus to arrive ! stupid rite . in th end arrive home at 930 but at least it was good to be baq home . ddnt take much pics coz not so in th mood , mostly adq take pics de nice hor . like she say 'seniman tepi jln (modern one)'
sotong me go talk to feeda when adq was snapping this (-.-)
one is like ah-beng scolding ppl , but th other one is laughing fer being kena scold . LOL
we 3 got super bored so we watched tv while others went to beach to play
clamps feeda found on th beach . she bring it baq and really cooked it in microwave thou . distuking
we all worked hard to light up th fire that it took more than an hour . we go baq oso fire hvnt start

neng2 dan embak2 sedang kerje keras .LOL

see see . th stupid fire keep going off and on that th girls all gave up on this .
and so here comes Mas Jokok & Wak-dun-remember-th-funny-name helping us . HAHA
too long waiting fer th fire , so we took last pic and went off coz cnt go baq too late oso .
feeda posing lawa seyy
wait fer th stupid bus fer super long , request her to do their 'special' dance . NICE *memang ader ciri2 ar*
xD
yup , she was super tired till she gv that look when taking this pic .
but suddenly she wokes up . * yeah ! stomach-in-chest-out*

2009-03-25T23:48:00.004+08:00

haiz been sick since ystd . went out to buy th chalet stuff but eventually i ddnt know thats y ddnt brought much monehh , ps adq & feeda (-.-) . back to th topic , otw baq while taking th bus , i felt dam giddy and body shivering , i knew and definitely can sense "that" duno-what-fcking-sickness . felt like vomitting but i endured till alight to my stops . walao i cnt feel my legs lo while walking and felt super weak . but i just continue walking on a slow pace and saw my uncle . tot could ask him fer a ride to send me baq but he's like in a rush to-duno-where . feel like zombie walking under th scorching sun (-.-) reached home tio saw by dad (dunidtoknow) then told mama bout this stupid sickness im been suffering . she insist i go see doc fer check-up but i refuse giving lame excuse . so she juz massage me using duno-what-red-colour-medicated-oil to warm up my body coz mama say my body was like dam cold . wah she massage me like duno-what sia pressing me and found out things that even i ddnt know like dislocated veins , blue-black area , clotted blood in some areas ( sounds funny to me thou ) . while massaging me , mama said i lost so much weight and she actually kinda mad coz she say she can feel my bone when holding my hands . well fer me i was happy la fer sure but duno what to say to dissapointed mama . she even dont allow me go chalet saying i was too sick to go out , but i told her i am fine adi by tmr . (haha)

so now my throats giving me prob . hope tmr chalet nth much happens ;D

2009-03-19T23:12:00.002+08:00

so long ddnt post blog with pics . some pics were taken way too long to rmbr ( xD ) . aiya so i just post whatever pics i found that is nice
my under-average plating fer DPF exam (=.=)
feeda plating fer DPF exam . Nice
bakerzin macaroons . way baq-duno-when-early-february i bought this . super yummy la
fer a second look , muke due2 mcm same sey . long-lost-sister ar ?
minta maaf ye saye post gamba ini tanpa izin anda berdue =X

this oso taken way-baq-duno-when-aft-practical-lesson

LOL ! pic taken was way past during asian sweet practical

if my memory doesnt fails me , adq still sick when took this pic but yup she can still smile . nice
scary la whats behind this pic
LOVES
pardon my face coz this pic was suppose to be 'smart and formal' but i guess i c0cked it up
blue checkered boyfriend t-shirt and belt bought at bugis few weeks ago
latest pic of today xD

2009-03-18T10:15:00.004+08:00

fcked taxi driver ! ask go clementi ite say ' oh that ar ,i know i know ' but in end took me to Ngee Ann Poly ! wth.. wasted my 17bucks , sumore we aren't suppose to go baq to sch . shyt la bmb oso waste my MONEY & TIME ! ccb

aft class went vivo coz as wanted to look fer adq's hat but couldn't find any (=.=) but adq 'shopped' alot! hehe... and i bought 2 round ramekin mould ; very nice brown colour & 1 white rectangle mould . woohoo souffle , creme brulee & bread pudding here i come ^_^

2009-03-13T22:52:00.003+08:00

so many things have come abruptly ,

so many things have make me busy these few weeks

that make me forgot to do my things as planned .

i've got so many things to get done with before sch holiday starts , during sch holidays and before sch holiday ends .

before sch holiday

settle some unsettled issue which i myself forget what it is xD
~~shopping fer clothes to be worn on class chalet .~~
save $$ to be used fer many purpose during sch holiday

i seem to be forgetting more as i write this down .

during sch holiday

more shopping fer bali trip ; ~~shorts ,~~ legging/stockings , ~~dress ,~~ shoes & bags
work work work (yeah adq ;D )
bakings ; cheesecakes fer sis bdae , healthy dessert fer myself xD

before sch holiday ends

ehemehem*
aiyyee , forgot la but i know something to do with $$

gosh keep forgetting la . nvm shall edit / update when i rmbr

2009-03-12T23:22:00.012+08:00

yeah thank god exams over . 2 days of sleepless nite but everything is really worth it so now just pray my Dessert Petit Four theory marks wont pull down th phase exam marks . bread paper was super duper easy can! ddnt study oso can de coz its all like common sense fer me thou . ppl was commenting arnd saying that th paper was really hard but i guess we all had diff way of thinking etc =D . fer those 2 days oni get to bed at 5am and rest fer less than an hour coz yeah i had last minute revision so had to study till morning . 1st day of studying i oni started at 10 or 11pm but i had babyy pei me coz he oso studying fer his exam but he gave in at 2am coz too tired cnt tahan adi xD 2nd day even more late , 1 am then i start sio and had kat & babyy again but suddenly he went quiet till morning coz he had fell asleep . LOL

stupid dessert paper . wth it was coz she gave quest that either she ddnt teach or frm IBSC . fck la coz its not even on th topic . one word STUPID !

tuesday went home straight sleep but oni had 3hrs of sleep coz mom was pestering me to wake up coz she ddnt know i was on th midnight oil session . was pissed off but tahan abit then play comp till nite then start study xD . ystd aft paper went bugis wif adq and feeda coz i was looking fer shorts . went there too early ba coz not much shop has open so ddnt manage to find what i wanted but i bought a cute dress thou . went peninsular plaza to look anrd . had so much fun there (oni adq and feeda knows ;D )went home had a nap fer 2 hrs nia coz really cnt sleep even thou im lacking if sleeping . nite pei babyy fer awhile but he fell asleep again . i slept at 3am but he wake up at 3am LOL had duno-how-long-of-sleep but i tink its like not enuf coz i still fell sleepy but cnt sleep la aft that . duno why

had fun really these two nights nad just pray hard its well off coz i had high hopes and veh confident . hehe

gonna pei babyy again tonite fer his final paper

2009-03-08T00:05:00.002+08:00

Sick !

super hate this time of th month . tink mine is th worse . every mnth i had to suffer . envy those ppl who ddnt kena or seldom tio this .

i do watch what i eat eventhough i had irregular meals so nvr take any . drink lots warm water , milk and less cold / soft drinks .

but still every mnth got it . in fact evry its getting more worse and evry hour spent its like killing me . really hate it when

kena till had vomit , diarrhea and my backbones feel like breaking . like wth! anyone knows any cure fer this prob ? had it since young

eventhou some lucky mnth or once a year nth happen when its time . ppl keep advice me to eat th pink tablet but i

dun really wish to coz dun want to depend on it too much . and sometimes or shld i say most of th time it ddnt really works la . painkiller but ddnt kill th pain im suffering and had to bear with it fer few days .

walao really cnt tahan le . *guessiwannavomitagainle =.= *

2009-03-03T23:02:00.004+08:00

this lady dam cool can!

juz love her voice la . she's american korean , rapper/hip hop since young .

2009-03-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

ku jatuh cinta lagi

<33

2009-02-23T23:20:00.004+08:00

charari mannaji mal geol geuretnabwa , ige mwoya ?

gyeolgook ireohge doelgeomyeonseo

URI GEUMAN HEEJIJA

uri sarang haji marasseoya dwae uri , uri sarang haji marasseoya dwae uri

GEUMAN YEOGISEO KKUETNAEJA

uri saranghaeseon an dwaesseoya dwae uri , uri saranghaeseon an dwaesseoya

seoro bandaeroman salja

URI IJEN NAMIYA

namboda deo mothan saiya

seoroga sangcheoman jugo , nummulman heulligo

miumman keojigo kkuetna

SARANGGATEUN GEO AN HAE , GEUKKAJIT SARANG IJE SIRHEO

dasineun majuchiji ma

nae yaegi haji ma

urin naminikka

sule chwihan neol naega gidaril piryo eoptgo

pigonhae haneun neol badajul il eoptgo

saengilttaemada neoege seounhae hal il eoptgo

amugeotdo neoege nan baral ili eopseo

geunde cham isanghaji ? nega wae geok jeongdoeji

na eopsin amu geotdo mothaneunde

jeongmallo gwaenchanheunji ?

kuselalusayangkamu

2009-02-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

omg.

maRy u really have to stop crying fer all these

just stop crying!

2009-02-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

i told myself ignore you since you've been doing that to me

i told myself to be cold to you even once

i told myself not to put any hopes on you again

i told myself i have to stop shed any tears for you coz you forever wont understand my thoughts and feelings

i told myself not to keep thinking and think too much bout it but i really cnt

i told myself i REALLY have to close my hearts for you at once

i told myself to give everything a chance but its way too much chances given and still nth change

i told myself to give up on everything since its too suffering

i told myself everything gonna be alright but its just a wishful thinking on my side

i told myself i have to let you go if that what you wants

i wondered myself if i can ever let you go

i wondered myself what will future behold for us if this r/s is like dying now

i wondered myself was there any third party recently or all along

i wondered myself was it really hard to make you understand me

i wondered myself what you really wants

i wondered myself what WE really need from each other

but one important thing is

i told myself not to hate you coz simply i love you too much to hate you

2009-02-17T23:18:00.004+08:00

i'm tired of having to wait on everything .

i'm tired of having to start th conversation but u trying to avoid/keep urself quite .

i'm tired of having to act not angry/mad when deep down i am .

i'm tired of having to keep calling on you coz im juz too scared you will ignore/leave me alone .

i'm tired of having crack a joke or tell any interesting story which in th end u still being ignorant .

i'm tired of having to be like a fool .

i'm tired of having to hope that you/everything will turn back as normal .

i'm tired of having to think that nothing is an issue .

i'm tired of having to think was everything is my fault .

i'm tired of having to keep thinking and worrying bout you when hell knows did you ever think like that to me .

i'm tired of having frequent wild thoughts bout all these .

i'm tired of having to forget everything and pretend nth really happens .

i'm tired of having to shed my tears every night .

i'm tired of having to cry myself out thinking bout you .

i'm tired of having insomnia just thinking bout any bad things that gonna befall on us or th r/s .

i'm tired of having a sad feelings whenever i think of our sweet memories together .

i'm tired of having to let myself not to forget anything , everything that we had done together .

i'm tired of having to let myself suffer alone inside .

i'm tired of having to be th one 'act' petty .

i'm tired of having to keep asking you to repeat things that you say will always do to make me happy .

i'm tired of having to keep requesting fer a pathetic simple kiss from you .

i'm tired of having to dream that you will just do those things without me asking for it .

i'm tired of having to been so-called accused of evrything .

i'm tired of having to let you do things that i really hate and you insist on doing .

i juz cnt stop writing coz tears really pouring on th keyboard.

ireallydunnowhathadhappen

but one thing fer sure

i will not get tired from loving you

coz' loving you is like breathing , how could i ever stop

BILY

2009-02-14T13:44:00.015+08:00

EVERYTHING ARE JUST PURE BULLSH*TS !! thanks so much ar . fake,

it perfectly suits both fer lovers and friends .

2009-02-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

MARY DIED ! goodbye ,

2009-02-02T12:40:00.007+08:00

ANAEMIC!! argh

totally unlucky day. tio sick early in th morning, till nite cnt stop going to th toilet. walao my body really dehydrated liao lo =.- both threw up and diarrhea. and super suay juz now wanted go see doc at nite, closed liao.and i was like less than 5mins aft th closing time. too bad lo cnt get mc :/

haiz stomach makes noise again and th toilet is waiting fer me again =.-

prepare and went to sch as usual. however i ddnt manage to reach sch coz smth dreadly happens to me . very hard to describe what was it coz oni me and sis knows what i was suffering from , but easy say i nearly fainted at th mrt station . lucky got some help from mrt stuff and fer their meticulous care , dad come to fetch me and went to visit ahma at th nearby hospital fer awhile.but pity chat so short coz i like no energy oso to talk. sry ma ma. den dad send me home. i can juz say it totally felt like i was dying and were left alone der . it always strike uncalled and anytime and very suay tdy kena when i was alone .

hate when i keep falls sick.

hate when body cnt function.

hate having to keep eat medicine.

hate to keep having to go see doc and waste mums' money.

hate to have just lying down on bed to rest whenever it strike.

hate when i cnt do anything as planned.

hate to keep missing frm classes.

hate to be left behind.

hate to be reprimanded and cursed at fer being sick.

hate to keep having to put strong front when actually its killing me inside.

I HATE TO BE LIKE THIS!

i dun like be a sick person . i dun want to be sick . i dun wish to be. i dun ask fer it too.

i want my healthy body like before .

JUST WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BODY SYSTEM RECENTLY?!

i dun like to keep suffers frm illnesses .

is it totally my fate to live like this?

why must it be me? why must it happens?!

ARGHHHH

2009-02-01T23:48:00.006+08:00

Sundayjuz rot at home all th way. slept twice tdy coz nth to do. babyy went out wif his frn to movies so i juz sit home and hv my beauty sleep HiakHiak . now is 1.50am and im still not asleep eventhough tmr gonna be early day fer me .hope tmr goes smoothly and nth hard work to do .Saturdaywent to SPCA again coz th previous ones ddnt get to do anything . pics can be found in feeda and fad blog coz all pics not frm me de . all th cats and kittens dam cute but very fierce and playful . got bitten but not so bad coz i kena more bad . dogs were cute too but they too noisy barking all th way . 2hrs at der playing and taking pics of dogs, rabbit, hamster and cats. went Phoon Huat de main branch at aljunied to buy th mousse mould . grab a bite at th mrt cafeteria and went seperately wif them . went home and visits to hospital was canceled coz mum not going . slept till midnight coz th med makes me dam sleepy , curse that sickness . *argh i ddnt get ang bao frm uncle coz i was sleeping. NO FAIR!! *FridayAsian sweets. ps no pics coz ddnt bring phone and kinda lazy too . did quite few items ; Epok-epok(curry puff) and Kueh Keria. we did th right way fer th kueh keria and i began to like this delicasies coz its sweet . others did fries sesame ball , kueh dadar , bubur cha cha etc etc. sian la no pics fer all this .Thursdaytdy no go sch coz i was sick. panic abit in th morning coz they asked fer projects but in fact mdm ddnt check fer dat day. make me waste time do pp rushingly. Wednesday

did fruit terrine. buay tahan sia th wine smell *bluek* . tanx ber 'sponsor' tissue paper fer 3 sick ppl. LOLs . bla bla bla aft prac went SPCA to d oth project but we kinda arrive 5mins late so cnt enter to take pics of th pet there . were pissed off coz traveled dam far but they wont let us in even fer 10mins. went baq home empty-handed .

practiced doing th Suzette Sauce . actually its ok de but waited fer mdm to test fer it, my sauce turns cold and harden/thickens so mdm tot its no good so i've to do again. but i choose not coz lazy and dun feel like doing it again .
th smelly white wine . really wanna vomit sia and furthermore i was sick on that day, but lucky ddnt xD
my Fruite Terrine before setting it in chiller .
mdm showed us making Vanilla Ice-cream . say we can food taste it but still ddnt get it though . fake promise
mine and feeda fruit products . my fruit dam alot lo so its not so nice
ate at Arnold's before heading to SPCA . th half chick not so bad but too oily la. th fries dam nice

Some of th dogs frm SPCA . took this pic secretly at th backyard coz we heard th dog bark non-stop and super loud coz they like can sense visitors came .

2009-01-24T22:38:00.011+08:00

Friday

had our practical on Asian Sweets. whole class in one shift and we had alot of fun but very tiring coz frm morning till 4pm. really alot of work but confusing but its better than th witch class.

see Hardworking ppl doing their jobs. semangat kau!
act cute hor
our frst product. ddnt turn well coz duno how to do ma and but taste still good le
same mixture with th top but frm diff steamer. duno how this one can make it but we're still proud of th two

Kats' group de product. Fa Gao like hanafi say*fark ko*
our 2nd product. Ang Ku Kueh. before steaming
Ang Ku Kueh aft steam
Ziees' grp doing th colorful Tang Yuan *not Tian Yuan hor*
Irene grp Muah Chee *forgot th spelling liao*
see this girl drinking *coffee* aka Gula Melaka drink nak potong kaki agaknyer.nibble2 gula tu da cukup, tk yah nak minum lak.
Kats' grp 2nd product. Ondeh Ondeh , nice but th sugar inside ddnt melt properly
our third product. Soaked Hippopothamus aka Badak Berendam. tangan berkaliber buat kerje dgn tekun *ehemehem*
see th 2nd girl. trying to hide frm me taking her pic but still got captured lo xD
Th Hippo aka Badak soaked in coconut milk
promoting th Hippo. priceless face HiakHiak
semangat ko budak ni makan hippo tu. kate Bone Family yg buat
th newly-wed couple feeding each other. Romantic hor *u menggatal eh belakang i. humph
th colorful Tang Yuan frm Ziee grp. i forgot how th taste le

Saturday

see this blue coloured eye kitten. mother has been saying got squirrel-like cat at th void deck. so i decided to 'hunt' fer th cat but i found her at neighbour house. she very cute lo. i was like hiding at near th lift and but she saw me and straight to me like so sweet lo. so i bring her baq home but my cat at home was like jealous or dun like her duno why. he's been making th 'fierce voice' so have to send her baq outside. but ltr on at midnight my mum took her baq again and this time we really trying to hide her from Kecik. and this squirrel cat is so active can. but now she sleep liao but kecik has been sensing her smell arnd th house. she sleep oso hv to protect her sia.

see she kissed me. sweet~
Can't resist her cuteness >.<

duno want keep her onot :/

so hard to snap a pic of her coz she keep moving.
i was taking her pic but she suddenly turn arnd and bite my nose. so cute and ddnt feel anything but got once she scratch me at my neck super painful can coz her nail is dam sharp